blondedawn

leap of faith

i scheduled an appointment with shady grove fertility. i don’t know why i was so afraid to seek out the experts, but thanks to a dear friend, i got past my own issues and scheduled the appointment for may 20th. i still want to start with the basics – testing, clomid, etc – but i like that if we need to do something more drastic like IUI, they already have all of the information.

i don’t want to start any of this until at least mid june but it will be great to talk to the doctors and have some sort of outline.

follow through

i made it to the gym and it felt great! 

-15 minutes on the bike
-25 minutes on the elliptical

can’t wait to go back! 

some songs i loved listening to while working out:
-womanizer, britney spears
-it’s tricky, run dmc
-thunderstruck, ac/dc
-don’t cha, pussycat dolls (kaskade mix)
-in da club, 50 cent

doctor’s visit

last week’s appointment went pretty well.  i expressed my concerns to the doctor, who agreed that waiting for three miscarriages is unrealistic and unnecessary. we talked about my metformin dosage, continuing to take it when i get pregnant, and whether or not going to the endocrinologist is necessary. he urged me to go, if only to get a better analysis of my hormone levels. the lab took three vials of blood and the results will be sent to my endocrinologist this week. i hope that the endo has more information or can guide me on how to best fight this syndrome.

the loose plan is to continue taking the metformin (working up to 1500mg/day) until late june. if i’m not ovulating on my own by then, we’re going to try clomid. i hope that my biggest problem is not ovulating and that either the metformin or the met plus clomid will help.

despite all of this talk about fertility and drugs and doctors, my life is not revolving around getting pregnant again. i still want to lose at least another 20 lbs and enjoy the next couple of months without worrying about getting pregnant. if it happens, great. but if not, i am really trying to not think about it too much.

i finished my last class of the semester on sunday and turned in my final a day early (2% bonus if we turned it in by sunday night). i have no idea how well i did, but i’m so relieved that this class is finally over. i swear that it was the longest eight weeks of my life! i only have four classes to go until i graduate with an mba in management. i can’t wait!

this weekend was so beautiful! unseasonably HOT (low 90s…it felt like texas!) but gorgeous and just what we needed after many days of rain. my mother-in-law went with me to lowes where i picked out a few flowers and plants for our deck. while james was racing yesterday, i picked out a patio bistro set and put it all together myself. :) the deck looks great now! i can’t wait to enjoy a cup of coffee out there this weekend!

random thought…i haven’t seen one of our neighbors for a long time. i hope she’s okay.

overheard in the doctor’s office

“you may find a tick down there. they like dark, damp places.”

i overheard this conversation while i was waiting for the doctor in the exam room next door. the pure honesty of the conversation made me smile because she was not one bit embarrassed or apologetic. i mean really, if there’s a tick anywhere near your vagina, you should probably know about it.

proactive

in order to be more proactive about my own health, i decided to make an appointment with an endocrinologist. when the receptionist asked to have my labs faxed to the office, i had a sinking feeling that my doctor’s office wouldn’t have anything of value to send over.  i was right.

i was originally diagnosed with pcos in texas  (in early 2005), but none of my virginia doctors ever ran the labs to see my hormone levels. i guess they accepted my explanation (and visible symptoms), but now that i think about it, i think it’s strange that they didn’t do their own blood work. i now have to go in to my regular gynecologist’s office tomorrow to have the blood work completed, but i also want to talk to him/them about getting pregnant. another doctor within the practice told me that they would test me or consider me high risk if i had three miscarriages in a row. i didn’t think much of it then, but it sort of pisses me off now. three miscarriages is a lot of emotional turmoil to go through. they KNOW i am at higher risk because of pcos, so it just doesn’t make sense to me.

i want to talk about things like progesterone supplements, taking metformin during pregnancy (again, to help with hormones), when we need to look at something like clomid, and what i can do NOW besides continue to lose weight. i really hope he will listen to me and help counsel me on this. we don’t want to actually try for another few months, but i want to be prepared.

i also want to discuss whether or not i need to go to the endocrinologist. i would rather deal with one office, but if my gynecologist can’t help me, i will have to look elsewhere.

i’m pretty nervous about all of this, but i am ready to know more.